“There’s a time for exposure; until then keep laboring in obscurity.”
― Bernard Kelvin Clive
There is no harm in casting about. Life is once fantastic possibility after another, with so many opportunities to make beautiful mistakes. The best we can do is just try to get along in the world, and not harm anyone, or anything, in the process.
I firmly believe that we are sent folks to give us a leg up – a tapestry of support, if you will. Some of them sparkle like the stars, while others make a choice to suck the light out of everything they can see. How we react to the actions of others, whether to learn or not, rests on our shoulders. Eleanor Roosevelt had it correct when she stated that it takes our consent to have others make us feel less than we are. Being alive is such a fragile and delicate experience, one that shouldn’t be wasted in worry or expectation.
For the first time, as an adult person, I have no idea what to do next in my creative and vocational life. There are some ideas floating around, but so far nothing has firmed up. It’s not been the easiest place to be in, as I carry a whole ton of guilt/shame for not constantly working myself into exhaustion — or always trying to turn my life into a side hustle. Sometimes you just gotta put that stuff down, walk away, and sit with a heating pad on your back.
Remember…sometimes it just takes as long as it takes.